viiru2alert | eleven (video) ♊ vacation's where i wanna be

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eleven (video) ♊ vacation's where i wanna be

[Good evening, friends. Sollux kicks this feed off with a shot of four baby Pokémon -- a Dratini, Bulbasaur, Venipede, and Larvitar -- all kind of napping or something together. The Gear lingers on them for a second, and then twirls back around so everyone watching can get an eyeful of Sollux's hideous glasses. Oh god they're awful.] So, since Team Megido has now touched base in Olivine and I have nothing to do because, oh look, I already have my motherfucking Gym Badge [this was directed towards someone off-screen], I decided that now would be a great time to dick around a little on the PokéGear.

So, it's getting damn close to summer. The weather's getting warmer and it's fucking fabulous, I literally couldn't be happier with the current state of the thermometer right now. Unfortunately, all of the springtime fun and allergies and shit also meant that I have four freshly-hatched little asswipes crawling around all over the place. I think everyone's kind of sick of them by no-- oh, wait, did I say four? Sorry, meant five. [And the screen moves AGAIN, to a picture of an adorable baby Vullaby picking at her feathers.] Look at that bitch. Found her wandering around in the Safari Zone. Do you people know how long I've been looking for one of these? Way too fucking long.

[And then the feed goes back to him. Maybe he's done gloating about his altogether unremarkable accomplishments... maybe.] And now I'm going to get back on topic. Summer. Back on Trollplanet, the Dim Season didn't mean much except the night-time got hotter, and the day-time got... well, also hotter, but the sun also kind of scorched all of your skin off if you walked out there anyway. There weren't any of these... festivals or holidays or shit. In fact, there weren't any festivals at all.

So, what's the difference between a festival and those godawful parties? Please tell me they're at least bigger. I've been dragged to several holiday parties now and all of them have had too many people in not enough room.

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[Well, considering neither one seems intent on stopping, she's gonna be holding back laughter for quite a long time.]

[Nope, she fails. But at least it's polite giggling.]

Don't laugh at me!

[...well that escalated quickly.]

[She manages to get control after a few seconds, though she's still sort of giggling as she looks at him.]

Sollux I am not laughing at you...exactly.

Yes you are.

[If he was still a troll, there would be sparks crackling right now.]

[Okay, that's...a bit alarming.]

Sollux, honestly. I am not making fun of you.

[He snorts angrily, but seems to calm down... maybe... slightly... a bit.]

Then why were you laughing at me.

[She huffs softly.]

I was not laughing at you. I was laughing at the entire situation.

...

[He sits there and pouts angrily at her for a while.]

Fine.

I believe you.

For now.

You should relax, Sollux. Most people will not be laughing at you.

[She'll just keep holding the baby pokemon for protection for now.]

That's what you think! I bet no one's ever fucking laughed at you, KN.

Vriska spent the majority of our relationship laughing at me, if I recall.

Vriska doesn't count. Let me rephrase that.

I bet no one respectable ever laughed at you, KN.

[Kanaya hesitates.]

...You consider me respectable?

You? Uh, yeah.

Huh.

[She hadn't been expecting that.]

Should I... not?

[He doesn't follow your logic, Kanaynay.]

No, it is just-

Sollux, I assumed you did not believe anyone was respectable anymore.

[ ... ]

[Boa crawled down from Sollux's neck, settling in a little ball in his lap again. Sollux put both hands on the Pokémon's back, desperate to have them do something, anything, so he didn't look so stunned by this.]

Maybe that's true.

[His head slumps.]

Maybe I don't think anyone is respectable anymore. Maybe... maybe I don't think, or feel, anything at all.

[His hands continue to mess around with Boa. Petting him, letting him rest his head in Sollux's hand.]

But I did, at one time.

Before all this happened. Before my mind was shot to hell.

I respected you. I respected you a lot.

[Kanaya wasn't entirely certain what to say to that at all. It was a surprising thing to hear, especially from Sollux. They had been friends once, what felt like forever ago, but he'd turned into...well, an asshole, and she'd let it go, because she couldn't keep holding onto things that haunted her.]

...Thank you.

[He holds Boa closer.]

[In a massively uncharacteristic, weak voice:] ...I really fucked up.

[She frowns, silent for a moment, uncertain what she is supposed to say. Finally she set the baby pokemon she was holding down, and sat down on the floor opposite him, folding her legs beneath her.]

How?

[Maybe it would help if he talked about it...]

I... I fucked it all up.

I stopped tryin' to deal with myself. With my problems. With my fucking head. I stopped trying to be normal. I just gave up and let my fucking duality do whatever the fuck it wanted, and I was there along for the ride, because I didn't wanna fucking deal with it anymore.

That's why I stooped talking to ya. And when I did, I was just a- a- [He laughs, mirthlessly.] -a prick. 'Cause before, I was trying to keep it up, and fight it, and be a fucking decent troll being. 'Cause people were worth it, you were worth it. Your fucking friendship was worth it.

And then, somewhere along the line... it wasn't.

[She listens quietly, her hands folded in her lap, just letting him talk it through until she thought he might be finished. For a moment, at least.]

So what changed, Sollux? I have never really understood that, I still don't, if we're being honest. You were one of my closest friends before you...weren't.

Nothin'... changed, really.

[Boa seems to have sensed that something is seriously going awry with his Trainer. Aww.]

I always wanted to say all the shit I did to you. Always. Even when we were... you know, friends. But back then, I could always control myself. Me being a bitter, angry asshole was just my initial base reaction, probably because of this fucking mutation I have. But the difference is this. Before, I was able to fight that, get over that part of myself, and so when I was talking to people I was an actual decent human being, instead of a spiteful piece of shit like I was in my head. Treat people like they ought to be treated, you know. Because I thought that's what I had to do.

And then I just got... tired.

And I stopped.

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